When I found out I had cancer, I experienced a shakedown of sorts. My psyche was disoriented.
How could this happen? I practice Yoga, I eat organic (most of the time) and I’m pretty positive, right?
Wrong, actually. I was living a toxic lifestyle on a physical level and emotional level; I knew it and didn’t listen. I wasn’t willing to see. If I really looked hard, and was radically honest, I could see that there were major adjustments that needed to be made, so that I could really show up to my life and live my life’s purpose and potential.
I started to go inside, for real. I started to search for errant thoughts (cells) that operate outside the natural state of things.
I’m of the Mind that only love is real, so anything unlike love needs to be weeded out, as its unnatural. We could cut out the cancer, and radiate my breast, but bottom line, if I wanted to be cancer free, I had to be free of fear. I had to take care and honor my body on another level. I had to think right, all the time, and be committed to that process, to surrender my will (thoughts) for God’s will. At least re-commit to that practice.
Marianne Williamson, in this video, speaks about living God’s Will. If God is Love, and Will is Thought, to follow God’s Will, is to think like God, and only like God. And God is Love, and, only Love is real.
A Course in Miracles is a curriculum that is for everyone, our only choice in the matter is when we take it. It is highly specialized and each of our journeys’ is specific. It’s meant to teach us that our egos are unreal and made up based on our belief in separation, that when we accept atonement (at-one-ment with God) for ourselves, we contribute to the healing of the planet, that forgiveness is the key to happiness. So instead of asking how this could happen, I started to allow myself to be guided so that I could heal the errant thoughts, that allowed cancer to manifest in my body in the first place. To practice trusting that the energy that created me, had a solution for every problem that was heavy on my chest, literally.
When I went to Claudia, owner of our local health foods store and longtime mentor,and finally told her what was going on, she said to follow my heart, and to to trust my decision wholeheartedly. That that would allow my choice to work for me. I asked her if people really healed themselves of cancer, she said without hesitation, “Yes, I see it daily and have for over 40 years.”
Wow. For me that was so new, I’d never heard of such a thing – I went to Spirit, can I do this?
The answer was, “No, but I can through You.”
And thus my journey began. A tender space, of really nurturing myself, my inner child, and all her fears. Listening for guidance, and being pro-active around what that guidance said, with words and energetically in my body. Paying close attention to the signs. Regardless of what my ego and the rest of the world thought about those decisions. I decided to be fully committed to the journey of Love only, and on that path, there is only one voice, and it is kind and loving, all the time.
Co-creating with the most powerful entity in our universe, Love (or God) is a privilege and a Joy. I am so grateful that I was diagnosed with Cancer, I am so empowered by this journey of healing, and know that my only purpose is to be open to love, to be a conduit for love, share only love and receive only love. Anything unlike love, is an illusion, and simply needs healing. And in healing, we are never alone. We have mighty companions, legions in fact. A little bit of willingness, A Course says, is all it takes.
Namaste friends. Let’s keep it real, and only Love.